Hi guys,
I am back to taking therapy after one year break. It is about my dad’s loss and Peanut. I no longer have any feelings for peanut. Thinking she would marry somebody doesn’t cause me pain anymore. But still think about her happiness still, not sure why. Maybe I’m healing. Connected back with 2 people from past. Meena-chan and Sheikh. Attended My Colleague / little bro Prasanna’s MUN event on January, loved it so much.
Dressed up for Prasanna’s event
Started my own chess club called Rishabee’s Chess club, Members are Bonda(Praveen aka Bonda), Deiva, Yuvi, Brien and Deviu’s colleague. Started a music club, and finance club with my buddies. Rockin came to visit me, Safin, Yuvi and Brien were also there. We went to play Badminton and also played PS5 too. Stayed 1 week for pongal with family at Madurai, with Deiva, Paapu, Athai, Amma, and JS. Then stayed another week with Safin in Trichy immediately after that. Yuvi also came. I cried for an hour in Safin’s presence. Remembered my dad and my experience going to theatre with him and eating snacks in the theatre. Safin tried to cheer me up, console me, and many other things. I could only see his lips move, but no words passed through to my ears, hehe.
Bought my very own chess board in Trichy. I love it so much.
Taking up more responsibilities at work, wish to protect my juniors like a real man this time around. Working with 2 guys in office Ovais and Arman. They are in my vibe so happy. Also got a new laptop M4 macbook air.
Hari visited me in my home, we talked for few hours and had Tea midnight
Right Hari, my younger bro.
Went to Bangalore and stayed with Dilip and Steve. I nearly cried when I had to leave their home. Such sweet days.
Dilip(center). Steve(Right)
Tried to surprise Goms on her birthday. But she didn’t react much. (Planning to beat her up for this lol, but it’s ok). Gave her chocies though.
Went to attend Paambu akka’s Valaikaapu. So happy, Akka is gonna have baby by next month. Chatted with Akshya too(Paambu’s wifey). Seeing in stage next to akka and being awkardly doing all the responsibilities was fun to watch.
Prathap aka Paambu
Marching towards my goals now, hehe. One day I will change this world. I still have my doubts of finding the love of my life. But will never quit in that aspect ever. Got Safin and Viswa by my side. Whatever happens, going to face it head-on.
I thought I had overcome fear of death, but looks like the more I realize that I have so much to loose, and so many people might loose me too. I want to keep living for them and try to be more healthy and be better in many possible ways. I wish to earn more, so that I can give it away without any care. I wish to make many people’s dreams a reality. I wish to maybe nurture more people. I wish to be the rock that holds it all together, till my last breath.
Opening up sexually too, trying to be bolder and who I really want to be.
It’s Deivu’s birthday today. planning a small surprise for him as well.
This week planning to visit Prathap and Akshya, along with Hari, can’t wait.
Next month going to attend my Owner anna son’s Ear piercing ceremony in Madurai with colleagues. Also planning to go and see my Marumagan Hardik Cheziyan, Shekar ki’s son.
Next month Safin’s 30th birthday is coming up too. Excited for that too.
April probably planning to go to Hyderabad, cuz I realised; I loved staying in other places(Bangalore) for a week and working from home. Most likely JS and Indhu Paapu will get married this year. excited for that too.
Safin, Yuvi and me having our usual fun filled conf video call, mocking each others love and existince, lol.
Hopefully, I create many more memories in this life.
To abundance in life, cheers🥂.
With love,
Rishab